I started off July quite relaxing with sun-kissed skin, salty hair, and some 50 shades of blue for my birthday celebration. It was a different kind of travel for the boyfriend and I because we did not stress ourselves in planning for our itineraries before the trip more so waking up early to explore Miami. We just go wherever we feel like going for the day and make the most out of it.
And I perfectly think that’s okay. We came to enjoy mostly the beach anyway. Being spontaneous is fun too, you know.
Speaking of the beach, it used to be my most uncomfortable place to be at. Then maybe you would ask why did I spend my pre-birthday celebration in Miami Beach? The reason was simple rather than being an infantile adult – I just wanted to wear swimsuits.
Believe it or not but I haven’t wore a swimsuit out in public with photos included just so because I did not have the confidence to do so. I was always feel insecure of how would I look wearing only 2 pieces of clothing covering only the parts that needed to be covered.
I’ve always think that swimsuits are not for me because I don’t have enough boobs or my booty are basically nonexistent or I have a square type of body. Of course, let’s not forget to mention the white stripes lingering somewhere to prove that I have undergone puberty.
These are the flaws that I’ve come to love and accept simply because I realized that I should love my body and be confident with whatever I have. As I manage myself to get through another year in life, many things became a priority and others became inconsequential to which I include hating the flaws on my body and minding what others may say.
You see, wearing a swimsuit on my pre-birthday celebration was an actual gift for myself. It’s a sign of being confident and tearing down all my insecurities. At this age I should never be mindful what the others would say as long as I don’t do any harm to anyone.
And I think you should too. It will be the best gift that you can give to yourself.